Thanks 2018, next!

Hello... folks!

Happy New Year 2019 to you, and your loved ones!

How was your 2018? Are you satisfied with everything? Or maybe.. some things? Well, I hope you do have some good things that happened in 2018 that gonna make you smiling while recapping it and makes u excited to plan for the better in 2019!

As for me, 2018 was a very challenging year! I wasn’t lying tho 🖖🏻

It was a year full of sins, lessons, happiness, disappointments, insecurities, and memories. I still remember I had some episodes due to these family issues I had. It hurts so bad.

My relationship with L also wasn't so smooth. I had tough times dealing with my own emotions, feeling of regrets, feeling of disgusts, and so many things. I ignored him a lot. I let him down, I hurt his feelings, and so much more. Yet, he's still sticking with me, encourage me, and never blame me. I love u, L.

Apart from these two major (bad) things, I had very understanding colleagues that now I call them friends. I become more close to them, my high school friends, my best girlfriends, and my siblings. I had fun at work, learning new things every day, getting more stronger and grown mature. That's what matters the most.

So yeah, that's how I conclude my 2018. Full of everything good and bad. Thank u, 2018. Next!

Disgusted

Kau pernah tak commit satu dosa besar ni, lepastu disebabkan kau rasa berdosa sangat, kau benci diri kau sendiri? Rasa jijik gila dengan diri sendiri.

And the worst thing is, kau benci orang yang kau drag into this sin as well. Padahal kau yang drag dia.

Ha yelah. Aku lah tu. Currently, hating myself, disgust at myself. 

Truth

Sometimes, facing the truth is the last thing I would do.
Still, I would rather choose not to.

Cause ya know, truth hurts.

Yogyakarta - pt ii

~ Day 2 ~

I woke up so early on day two, it was around 05:00 am. I guess because it's a new place, but it was an hour early than Malaysia time. Which means I actually woke up at 04:00 am! LOL! #sistrynatahajudmaybe But then I had to wait for my bishes to wake up, and we went down to get our breakfast at 08:30 am, which left almost nothing for us to eat already. HAHAHA! Oh! Forgot to mention that during our stay, there's some Women Delegations thingy were happening there so there are so many women wearing their traditional dress. Some look like from Africa, Nigeria, and some other parts of Indonesia.

Our driver and tour guide came around 09:00 am, bring us to our first tour which is Sultanate Palace. I think they call it The Kraton of Yogyakarta. It is the official seat of the reigning Sultan of Yogyakarta and his family. It also serves as a center of Javanese culture and contains a museum displaying artifacts of princely provenance. We learned a lot about Sultan and his family and also the  Javanese culture. It was fun ya'know, learn about new things. Oh, by the way, I forgot how much the entrance fee but it's already paid la. I mean, included in our package.

Picture @Sultanate Palace here!

And then, we went to Taman Sari or they call it Water Castle. I swear to God it was extremely hot but the place was so beautiful and stunning. The story behind this place is that the princesses used to bath here, and the Sultan will come, stand in the tower, hunting for a wife.

Picture @Water Castle here!

After that, we're supposed to visit Batik Home Industry & Silver Craft @ Kota Gede but we skipped that because all of us were too hungry already. We had our breakfast too early man tt_tt! We had lunch @ some local restaurant, and then we went to visit Mangunan Pine Forest. It was two hours journey by car, no kidding! We slept well tho.

Picture @Mangunan Pine Forest here!

I think we spent like thirty minutes only at Mangunan Pine Forest, then we rushed to Breccia Cliff because we don't want to miss the sunset. Luckily, we arrived on time. The sunset was around 04:00 pm, dude! After that, the sky turns cloudy. Glad we managed to get few awesome pictures here.

Picture @Breccia Cliff here!

Then, we had dinner @ local restaurant on our way back to the hotel. After that, our driver dropped us at the hotel, we went up to pray and shower, and go down again for a walk around Malioboro Street. We're so lucky that our hotel was very near to that famous street and night market so we could just walk there and save up some cash. Since we already decided to buy things on our last night, so we just walk here and there, surveying this and that only.

cont...

Yogyakarta - pt i

Oh, everyone! Hi everyone! Happy Malaysia Day, everyone! I just... came back from Yogyakarta (FYI)! \^o^/

So, for the last few days (Sept 12th until 15th), I was in Jogja. A famous city in Java, Indonesia that is known for its traditional arts and cultural heritage. I went there with my uni-bish (Shud & Nad), and it was my first personal travel experience (I mean, not with my family, neither my company. Everything under my own expenses). Believe me or not, I've always wanted to go to Jogja since the first time I watched "Ada Apa Dengan Cinta", and I put it on the very top of my wishlist (which now has been marked as ✔️).

For those who've been asking for my itinerary, here you go!

Click on the photo to read the texts, folks!

Disclaimer;

• Ned and I were roommates and we're working at the same place.
• Shud is our friend and she's working at Cyberjaya.
• We decided to get a tour guide package as this is our first travel experience.

First of all, Ned and I decided to take 3 days leave on Wed, Thu, Fri. We went to KL on Tue, depart from Penang by bus around 10:30 am. We arrived at TBS around 5:00 pm, and check in @ Hotel Mangga. I swear the hotel was so nice I gave 4.7 stars but the location (hmm) quite hard to get Grab / MyCar from there to go anywhere. We checked out on Wed morning, had some breakfast and depart from TBS to KLIA2 by JetBus around 11:00 am.

As soon as we arrived at KLIA2, we went to check in our luggage first so that we don't have to worry, yet think about it anymore. And then we just play around and waiting for Shud (she's coming from Cyberjaya) during that one and a half more hours before boarding time.

03:35 pm: Depart from KUL to JOG by Air Asia AK348
05:10 pm: Arrived Yogyakarta (4pm Indonesia Time)

~ Our sweet vacation starts now! ~

We had an awesome (and expensive) dinner @ Forest Kitchen & Gelato (but it's already paid by us in the package so we're actually impressed lol  \^o^/). Then, our driver sent us to the hotel, our tour guide help us check in @ Hotel Pesonna Malioboro, and we just call it a night since everyone already tired and we have to be energetic for tomorrow.

cont...

Move On

I made a mistake
By replying to your message
When I'm supposed to ignore 'em
I am sorry for that

Sorry for giving a fuck about you
Sorry for answering all your questions
Sorry, that you left me
Sorry for your loss

And sorry, that I chose to move on first.

PNG - KUL - TGG

Hey there!

Today's entry is about my freakin' short getaway to Terengganu and Kuala Lumpur.

Oh honey, it's nothing special actually. Just a freakin' random trip to two freakin' places I usually went. So yeah! Happy reading!

Oh (!) by the way, I noticed that lately ni kan I always use the word "freakin'".

Like freakin' always man! Ah there! You see? Hahahaha! Actually, I'm trying to distract myself from using the f-word so the alternative way I found (and quite similar to it) is the word "freakin'".

So please.. don't be annoyed *sweatdrop smiling face*

Let's get started!

The main reason I went to Terengganu was actually for Emi's E-day.

She's one of my close friends from UniSZA that helped me a lot during my studies.

Her story is quite funny you know. I mean, she was single and freakin' available back then. And she's literally complaining to us (Me, Atie, and Shud) like freakin' every day about her being single. She always said something like "Hmm kite ni takde orang nok. Tah bile ah buleh nikoh." every time we sat together and talked about guys. But then bhahaha you see, the one that always complaining no one wants her suddenly gets engaged first walaoweh tetibe aku rasa tak laku lak hahahaha!

Okay, sorry terbabas topik.

So, I bought the plane ticket from Penang to KLIA2 first. To fetch my manja friend (read: Atie) that doesn't know how to fly alone. After finished work on Friday, I flew to KLIA2 around 11:05 PM, alone. Then arrived there around 12:15 AM, and met Atie at KFC.

Since our next flight to Terengganu is freakin' early in the morning, so we decided to eat and just lepak there while waitin' for boarding.

Our next flight is at 5 AM so we have to board at 04:15 AM.

So, technically we only waited for few hours at KFC there and saved our budget la kan because if we booked for container hotel there haa are you freakin' kiddin' me lol we're not that rich. 

Oh I have to tell you this!

The view was freakin' awesome I kid you not honey!!!

The sunrise was.. breathtaking.

I swear if I'm going to fly to anywhere on earth again after this, I will definitely choose the morning flight (if ada rezeki la).

Okay then, we arrived Sultan Mahmud Airport around 7 AM because some delayed. The airport was freakin' pretty. I was stunned there for a moment after we touched down. It was unique.

Even tho I studied at Terengganu for almost 4 years, I've never taken flight neither from there nor arrived there. So my first time moment only after I finished my graduation already.

Anyway, Emi and her dad came to fetch me and Atie. Then we arrived at her house, had our breakfast and lay down for an hour before her event started. Then at 6 PM, after everything has been settled down, Oja came to fetch me because I was planning to sleep over at her house instead of Emi's.

Since I already nearby, why not right?

Then at night, we went out for a dinner. She brought me to something-burger-place.

The burger was nice. But the portion was freakin' much and I failed to finish it. *sad*

I bet if I went there with L, so kesian leh he has to finish his food and mine with that portion some more! hahahaha ily!

My bus to TBS wasn't as early as my flight coming to Terengganu, but it's at 9.30 AM so we're quite rileks that morning. We woke up at 8 AM (both of us we're on red flag), showered, and breakfast. Then I took her balang kuih samperit and brought it with me because I want to eat in the car on the way to bus terminal. Then we bid our farewell *cries*

Oh! I met someone I used to know on the bus. But I just pretend like nothing happen because I was quite nervous hahahhahh silly me he doesn't even remember me I think.

I arrived TBS around 5 PM and had to wait for L because he wanna come and fetch me (OMG I swear it was freakin' annoying dah la I kena pao by this uncle some more lepastu need to wait for him almost 30 minutes pulak tu blergh I hate waitin'!!!)

Then he sent me to the hotel first because I have to check in. Whilst he went to solat Maghrib, I showered and get changed. AFter that, we went to eat Nasi Ayam Penyet at Waroeng Restaurant inside NU Sentral. Oh ya! I forgot to mention that the place I stayed was freakin' cheap and literally beside NU Sentral so it's freakin' convenience for me.

But . . . *evil laugh*

I suggest you guys not to choose PODs The Backpackers Home & Cafe as your preferred hotel because the female shared bedroom has FREAKIN'. HUGE. BEDBUGS. Like.. lots! I really regret my decision tho.
Around 2.30 AM, another backpacker (named Eliza, from Brazil) and I were really cannot sleep as we both have sensitive skins (my face and my hands are swollen already), so we decided to go to receptionist downstairs and..

(to be continued...)

Left

Everything suddenly becomes her fault.

Simply because he still loves her whilst she already moved on.

It was him who left her first.

Above Clouds

** | "This is Flight AK 6222, bound for Kuala Terengganu"

A breathtaking color appears before my eyes.
I wonder what is the HTML code suitable to represent it.

Book title: Every Moment Was You - pt II

"In your busy and confusing life

while you solve your affairs

when you suddenly wonder what is that person doing right now

thinking of someone other than yourself first

that could be enough to mean love."

Book title: Every Moment Was You - pt I

"This is the kind of relationship I want to have.

Where my heart may not be flutter every second

But with just one hug

It feels like all my stress is being washed away."

Reverse

I’m in a train.

Suddenly decided to come home.

To celebrate this Eid.

And the train, this train..

It’s moving backward
*sigh*

I wish my time could have this feature.

So that I can go back to my past.

So that I can have my father back.

So that.. my family, could become one again.

Anyway, Happy Eid Mubarak everyone.

Eid Mubarak

It’s tomorrow.

But first...

What am I supposed to feel about this Eid thingy?

Seriously.

Opaque

Hello there, hi.

First and foremost, Ramadhan Kareem! ✨

As you can see, I'm restarting my blog (if you're following me from the beginning, you'll realize). Yeah, I'm rebooting it.

Today, I've been thinking of starting over a new blog. For no describable reason, I just wanna start all over again. But then when I re-think back, it would be a waste. I mean, it's not like everyone know this blog as I only shared the link with some of my friends. So tonight, I log in to my blog, go to the list of entries, delete that thought of starting a new blog, and just archived all my previous entries instead.

Now, let me be honest. This month was pretty hectic for me. Like sometimes I felt so down and entirely demotivated. Sometimes, everything feels so high and exciting! And sometimes, I felt so lonely. The loneliness was deadly. It's not like I was craving for attention. Seriously I get all the attention from my pals, fam, L, even my colleagues, but it was me who told them off. I felt like... Can everyone go shut the f up? Or can I just die now? Or can someone please help kill me? Or I just wanna resign, please. Everything's so tiring.

I don't know folks. I don't even know what it is. I mean, the thing that has been bothering me. I tried talking to someone about this tho. Yes, I did. But, you know... yadda yadda... I've been there, this phase. No worries, it will pass. Other than that, try re-check this and that. There must be something wrong with your ibadah and such. Also got some like, kau jangan layan sangat your dark thoughts tu. And my reply was... "Okay. Noted with thanks.".

Folks, this dark thought, it comes from inside. So please, if you just gonna tell me to re-check my imaan and spiritual and such, thank you so much. Google told me already. I tried already. But I guess, I'll just have to deal with it by myself. No one will understand how's that feel so... let's not wasting our energy.

Anyway, these few days have been much better for me - somehow 🌻

I wish it will continue being better and my old self will come back, enjoying her dream job and living a happy life. As always.

Harlo, readers *waving like a Queen*...

Guess what? I've been receiving this kind of question lately which is... *drumroll*

" How's life? "

       LOL! Hahaha! I found this interesting, somehow. I mean, yeah man. Life is good. Life is great. Sometimes, life treats me like shit. But y'know what? That's how the universe works.  But seriously, as for me, I think life is great. I'm doing good in my job. I'm getting along very well with my colleagues. I'm getting full support from my family and Luq. Above all... I'm enjoying my life.

       However, to be honest... weeks before today wasn't that great. I was so stressed. I felt useless. I'm too lazy to finish my task, I spent most of my time watching The Flash instead of working. And the worst thing happened was... I delayed my prayers. I'm so at my worst, somehow. First and foremost, I think that's the reason why I became so... empty and stress and useless. Because I delayed my prayers. I neglect my responsibility as a Muslim.