Health

Hey ya, folks!

It's me again. How are you doing? Today's rant is about health! I mean New Year resolutions and health.

So, I wanna share with you my new year's resolution that I shared among my friends in my portal team. Since they knew, why can't you? rite ~ Only in here, I will explain a lil bit more details coz that day I was still sleepy during sharing session that I refused to explain and talking much. So, here we go ~

1. Personal
• Exercise - at least once in two days (minimum 30mins)
• Money management - always remember to keep track of expenses and not overspend! Try to save at least 3% from allocated duit poket every month.
• Travel - travel more, experience more!
• Mental health - pay more attention to my mental health. Exercise more, get some beauty sleep.
• Less coffee - limit to one cup (<700ml) per day. I'm trying not to blame coffee for my insomnia episodes.
• Lose weight - by eating healthy foods. Try to take fewer junk foods (at least once a month). 
2. Family
• Attention - pay more attention to them. Taking care of their studies and health.
• Travel - let my siblings experience the art of learning new things.
3. Work
• Freelance job - find times to take a freelance job, so can earn more and learn more!
• Balance work-life - go work on time, come back home on time. Eat. Exercise. Sleep. Fully utilize the time.
• Good senior - become fully independent and reliable (junior may come to ask me at any times, and I always have an answer for them).

Ok. So basically, my new year's resolutions are mainly focusing on improving my health. I had hard time to fall into a deep sleep last year. I've even been warned by an app on my phone, and my seniors. Because when I can't sleep, I'll do some work or watching movies or anything. Making me feel exhausted during the morning, and becomes moody for no reason.

Few of my friends also keep tagging me in articles they've been reading, regarding lack of sleep, take too much caffeine, eating unhealthy food, and such. I know they care about me, so why not I try to take care of myself too.

Oh! And I miss my mom too. I hope my relationship with her will be better this year. I'm planning to bring her to travel with me too. Before it's too late.

Anyway, what's your new year's resolution? Whatever it is, I hope you will achieve it. May this new year 2019, brings us more happiness and good health and wealth. Adios!

Thanks 2018, next!

Hello... folks!

Happy New Year 2019 to you, and your loved ones!

How was your 2018? Are you satisfied with everything? Or maybe.. some things? Well, I hope you do have some good things that happened in 2018 that gonna make you smiling while recapping it and makes u excited to plan for the better in 2019!

As for me, 2018 was a very challenging year! I wasn’t lying tho 🖖🏻

It was a year full of sins, lessons, happiness, disappointments, insecurities, and memories. I still remember I had some episodes due to these family issues I had. It hurts so bad.

My relationship with L also wasn't so smooth. I had tough times dealing with my own emotions, feeling of regrets, feeling of disgusts, and so many things. I ignored him a lot. I let him down, I hurt his feelings, and so much more. Yet, he's still sticking with me, encourage me, and never blame me. I love u, L.

Apart from these two major (bad) things, I had very understanding colleagues that now I call them friends. I become more close to them, my high school friends, my best girlfriends, and my siblings. I had fun at work, learning new things every day, getting more stronger and grown mature. That's what matters the most.

So yeah, that's how I conclude my 2018. Full of everything good and bad. Thank u, 2018. Next!

Disgusted

Kau pernah tak commit satu dosa besar ni, lepastu disebabkan kau rasa berdosa sangat, kau benci diri kau sendiri? Rasa jijik gila dengan diri sendiri.

And the worst thing is, kau benci orang yang kau drag into this sin as well. Padahal kau yang drag dia.

Ha yelah. Aku lah tu. Currently, hating myself, disgust at myself.