Again.

Dear diary,

       Insomnia hits me hard tonight. I cannot get some sleep. I have no mood to continue to do work. I’m battling with my own demon. I’m fighting with the dark thoughts, trying to take over my half-conscious mind. I’m trying to stay alive, to see another day. God, I’m tired. I really am. I can’t stop crying. I feel so jaded. I’m so fuckin disappointed with myself. I feel devastated. God, I wish I could end this. This is so hard for me to bear. I don’t know I can hide this until when. Can’t you just help me put an end to this?

I'm just... tired.

Irreplaceable You

Hi folks. I'm back, with a movie :)

It's called, Irreplaceable You. It's an American romantic comedy-drama film released on 2018.

The story is about a couple (Abbie & Sam), who have been best friends since childhood. When both of them are engaged to be married, Abbie is diagnosed with a stage IV cancer. That's when their lives starting to crash down. However, she embarks on a humorous mission to find a new love for Sam, her fiancé. She tried to arrange his future in case she wasn't in it. But focusing on his "next" made her lose sight of their "now".

"Here's what I know: You don't have as much time as you think do.

It's true for every person on the planet." - Myron

"You can't make me okay without you." - Sam

"... at the end he looked at me and smiled and said, "I'll see you around.".

And I know I will." - Estella, Myron's wife.

"... and I can't help it if you lose your glasses or your socks don't match.

I have to let you go." - Abbie

"And I know we don't have forever, but the truth is, nobody does.

I love you now." - Sam

"I love you, now." - Abbie

"Crocheting IS a metaphor for life. It's really hard." - Abbie

Bye Bish

Dear Diary,

       Today I took half-day. I just came back from the airport with Atiq, after sending Ned off to KL. She was in a rush just now. Actually, she thought the boarding time at 03:10 PM. End up that was her departure time. So around 02:00 PM, she took grab to the airport, and Atiq and me just her there. Luckily we managed to catch her before she went inside. Had a small talk and hugs & kisses, then she went in. After that only suddenly I cried. Atiq just hugs me and led together to the car, with me and my teary eyes.

       Bye Ned. It was a sweet 2 years, being with you as a roommate, coffee-mate, tablemate, gossip-mate, wander-mate, and rempit-mate. All the best at the new place. Work hard! So that we could travel harder!

Luv ya, bish!