2021 Recap

Suddenly it's 2022 already. Did I skip a year or what lol? Last time when I was 16, I read everywhere that 2021 is supposed to be awesome. Like flying cars-everywhere kind of awesome. Then suddenly, it's 2021 and I couldn't even fly anywhere. Not even by a plane, HAHA jokes on me. Anyway, here's a recap for my "awesome" 2021.

January 2021 

- I got COVID-19 ! yup. I was here & there; hanging out with Sohais, my high school girlfriends came sleeping over at my house (we even sharing maggi in a pot heh!), Luke came Penang as well. And the next day after sending him home, I found myself shivering on the floor the whole fugging day until I couldn't bear it anymore 20 hours later and called Mas to help bring me to the hospital. With the PKPD and all, she came anyway at 3am and help brings me to Hospital Pantai. 3 hours later, my card got charged RM986.90 because I was tested positive for COVID and none of my insurances got covered for that. Dang! So I have to quarantine for 4 days (if not mistaken), in my room, or at least until my fever went down. Mas has been very very helpful during these days. She cooked, or I think she did. Haha! But she always making sure that I eat on time and took my med la for sure. Super grateful for her existence. After 4 days staying in my room, KKM came and took me to the quarantine centre. I think it was a dental hostel at Penang GH there. I was there for 10 days. Lost my sense of taste and smell the whole week I was there. Lost some weight too hahaha!

February 2021

- Life was not okay. CJ resigned! He's no longer here starting this month hmmm... YZ and WM is following him by end this month. Also, I submit my 2 months notice the next day after YZ left. Other than that, nothing much happened except I just continue working from home, alone for the whole month. Oh! Not to forget, I had to continue paying for the rent of the whole house, all by myself. While paying for my car. Oh! Did I mentioned I got myself a car? *wink*

March 2021

- Celebrating my 4th year workniversary by resigning. I moved out N-Park. Went back Kedah, finishing off my 2 months notice at home, playing with my lil sister & brother. Just enjoying my time with them as much as could for now.

 April 2021

- The most eventful month I could say. It's my last month working in Penang. It was a sweet 4 years I'm not even kidding. I'll be starting working at Selangor by the end of the month. And OH! Luke and I got engaged !! *scream* can I even believe this?? we got tied on our 5th years together heheheheh I'm happiii !

May 2021

-  I'm now a "wizard"! That's what they called themselves here lol. First time in my life, I got stucked at other state during raya because of this damn PKPB. Luckily I got Luke. At least can eat ketupat at his house. I cooked Mama's famous kuah kacang with beef satay for the first time ever, and everyone loves it. *proud*

June 2021

- Luke started new job as a technical engineer, and he sounds happy at new place. Alhamdulillah. Me? Work has been tough. Freaking tough. That's all I remember.

 July 2021

- I've got Feqah joining the team!! So happy! Feels like EP all over again, except the works here are tough, and my teammates sux at communication.

August 2021

- The wedding preparation has been a bit chaotic but I think it's normal la kut. Been travelling back to back KDH-SGR.

September 2021

- My last month staying here at BU 4/4. Moving out by end of this month but still haven't got house to move in yet so my stuffs gonna sit in Ayah's car for a while.

October 2021

- Feqah left. I swear it was tough working here and I support her decision wholeheartly.

- Luke & I, we're getting married whoooohooooo! I mean Alhamdulillah! Never have I ever imagine to marry the guy that I asked for a picture and ran away right after that, 5 years ago during our FIK dinner hahaha. I was so sure that he already had a girlfriend during that time, I mean with that handsome face, how could he not! But turns out he was single, and I became his girlfriend a year later. Cheers to a new life together, forever Insyaallah.

November 2021

- I'm a wife! I'm Luke's wife. It's soooooooo fun living with him istg! He's kind, diligent, hardworking, and so much more. He's been taking over the role of doing dishes, mopping & vaccuming the house, driving me around, and most importantly, making sure I eat on time. Also we received so many presents from our friends. I'm so grateful because those things we received are those in the lists which all are useful items that we really need. Alhamdulillah.

December 2021

-  It's my birthday month, my favourite month of the year! Last year around this month, I went on a roadtrip with Luke, around peninsular. From PNG - PRK - SGR - PHG - TRG - KDH back to PNG. So this year, we couldn't go anywhere but I've Luke as my husband; the greatest gift I could ever asked for. I woke up on my birthday to a small surprise he set up for me. With the balloons, mochi ice creams, my fav cottage cheese, and THE RETRO ESPRESSO MACHINE I've eyeing for a while!!

So... that's how my 2021 went! Got covid, got a new job, got engaged, got married, and most important one, got a coffee machine!! *scream priority*

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So these days, you have to push yourself to write so hard it almost feels like BOTD in my head.
I mean, who I'm tryna kidding around here? Procrastination is my middle name ok! Ok anyway, there are so many things that happened in these few months, to me to everyone even to the earth. It was so.. WOW! I may say. I don't want to forget each of these memorable things so let's jot 'em down, shall we?

First, let's start with the pandemic thingy that spreading all over the globe. Corona Virus or it goes by the nickname Covid-19, is legit one famous killer since earlier this year. But Malaysia got affected so bad starts at the end of February. So, we had to go semi-lockdown or the gov called it Movement Control Order (MCO) or PKP which basically just a Malay translation of it. It started March 18th and ended on June 9th. During this phase, everyone is required to stay at home and stay away from each other (or at least, from anyone that lives in a different house). Remember a few months ago I keep whining about wanting my company to give back the WFH privilege to us tech people? Yeah man.. God heard that and grants me the privilege for 4 months! I thank God so much for that (sincerely). I mean, not the pandemic part la but the WFH part ofc.

I've slowly become a home-person now. I feel so lazy to go out even just to throw out garbage. I feel miserable just by thinking about going out. And it gets worse when I came back Penang. Living here alone, I've no choice but to go out to restock my foods and do some groceries by myself. God knows how anxious I am every time I had to get myself ready to go out. I hate walking around with facemask on. I hate having such a tiny little oxygen to inhale every 3 seconds. I hate it when I've to talk some more when I already having difficulties breathing. I used to call Chub every time I'm doing my grocery shopping but now, I couldn't cuz the only thing he could hear is me gasped for air. Sorry for saying this but wearing facemask is suck. But I'm paranoid too so na-uh! I wouldn't risk it. I used to put on facemask only when I'm at the airport or bus terminal but now, even go down lobby take food also I would definitely put it on cuz.. it's a new normal they say (and again, I'm a paranoid bitch). Thanks to that, I now suffering a bad bad bad break out on my cheeks. Damn it. Now the reason I'm putting on mask cuz I was tryna hide the acne & scars. You see, I already sweat a lot on a daily basis. So can you imagine how would I be when I had the mask on for more than 15 minutes? It literally floods in here man. Ugh! I've never had such a bad breakout like I'm having now, and my 26-year-old skin really not gonna get better faster like when I was young.

Ok. Let's move on to the next part. Despite everything that is happening, I found a silver lining that I'm so thankful and grateful for. My family is getting back together again! Oh dear God Almighty, You definitely know how thankful and happy I am. My family has been quite distanced from each other for the last two years. So this year, I was home for 3 months (like everyone else), and I've gotta spend lots of time with my little sister, Azzahra. I even play cook with her, PS, let her do my hair, we read books, watch Netflix, we fought also, we finally make use of my mom's oven that she's not planning to use for the next 3 years by baking some cheesecake & brownies, together. My mom finally gets someone to fix the fan in my room that has been broken for so many years already. Aaaaaah, all I wanna say is that we really use this quarantine time to get closer to each other. And I love that.

The most important memory is, I get to spend the whole Ramadhan at home. Oh dear Lord, how great is that? You're truly The Almighty. Earlier Ramadhan, my Bangchik wants to start a business. Since my mom was apparently on leave from School, and Abang also at home, so we think why not? So, we do it. However, Bangchik gets a little tired from doing all that, and he thinks it's not really worth it cuz he's not getting back the profit, so he stops doing it. But for me, it was worth it. We get the experience and my mom seems like enjoying it so much cuz people like her recipe. Not gonna lie man, she's a good cook. And then, we also cooked together for Raya. Everyone joining the party. We make my favorite Soto Ayam this year. I was in charge of the cili kicap. Man.. it was hot selling I told ya. Also, Along somehow get a pass to come back a day before Raya and he requested Nasi Daging. Ma doesn't want to let him down so she cooked that as well. Wah seriously, this year Raya was so happening (even tho I didn't get a bonus and couldn't give much to my siblings and then they attacking me for having an iPhone11 Pro but give them duit Raya so little but whatever, I love them anyway). Oh! Another thing I like was, I didn't miss any sahoor at all! Except for the day that I cannot puasa, but yeah I totally did not miss it. AzZahra too!! Lord.. I miss my dad :<

Speaking of Az-Zahra, can you believe that she only missed 5 out of 30 days of fasting this year? She's only 7 this year and this is her first-time puasa! Walao eh this girl! Such a strong girl with a strong spirit. I promised her I would give her RM5 per day for every day that she managed to hold herself and man.. who am I kidding? Hahaha! I would never forget she would come to me and negotiate about that RM5 and what can she buys with it and is it worth it cuz if it's not, she wants to break the fast. It takes the whole family to persuade her. Not that we forced her to fast but she doesn't want to eat anything if she's breaking it. She just wants to drink water or milk at 5pm and then want to continue back the fasting. It's such a loss, right? So that's why we wouldn't allow her to do so.

Oklah. I'm getting sleepy now. I promise I will continue writing cuz Nad says, go write out the things I want to rant. Instead of telling to someone and not getting the response that I expected. So yeah, later!

Happee 3rd (working) anniversary, Han

Sorry for the advanced excitement. There are still a few more days to that, but I don't care. Anyway, I joined our company's annual dinner #EPGALA2020. Everything was good. Really! The foods, the performances, the prizes, everything. However, there's something unspoken thing that happened that worries me so much. Some bitter truth that we gonna face after this annual dinner, which literally starts tomorrow.

       Hey hey hey, isn't the golden ticket looks cool? I bet ur ass also thinking the same things as me aite? Ok so, here's a fact; behind this ticket got engraved my name and a QR code. So the QR code delivers a message from my manager, which touched my heart and almost make me cry. Well, almost.

       I'm so glad that I made it again this year. Legit glad. I enjoyed last night so much that at the end of the day, I realized I didn't even take a single selfie of myself (???) I just, wow! I went thru my phone's gallery and realized all the happy faces on my phone that I help take. And somehow, it makes me happy as well. I'm so attached to my fellow teammates so much, some of these people that I call them friends now. Well, a heads up, this might be (or should be) my last annual dinner for this company. BUT somehow I got lucky that I managed to bring home 6% salary increment. So yeah, Alhamdulillah. I believe Allah has a better plan for me, so I'll just put 100% faith in him. After all, He knows best.

        We have this annual tradition of taking pictures of us 'awesome people' but somehow this year got lots of faces eh. But these people are the ones that can handle my rude ass and never take it into heart so cincai la nevermind I'm just glad I found y'all. Some of em (The Sohai Circle) saw me cried, sohai, fcked up and most of the days, happee ^^. I really appreciate each one of you (other than those who just got in Idk how). Thanks for accepting me as I am and thanks for letting me be myself when I'm with you guys. God knows how grateful I am to be able to work and play with you guys.

       To my reporting manager, I have some (not) famous last words for you. I hope one day, you'll found my blog and read this.

       "First of all, thanks for choosing me 3 years ago, and inviting me into this family. Your are legit one of a kind and a guardian angels that been sent from up above to guide me and help me grow into a fine young lady in this harsh working life. You're so cool, short-tempered but understanding as fish. Or lobster. If I were given an opportunity to restart everything all over again here in EP, and get to choose the manager by myself, I would still choose you, again and again. That's how important you are to me, to us; all the sohai(s) in our awesome portal team. I'm so sorry if you feel under-appreciated, but please bear in your mind, we appreciate you so much. Sorry that our boss couldn't see that in you. Hope we can still be friends and stay sohai no matter what happen in the future. So long, dude!" - for The C dude

       "To my behind-the-scene team leader, my favourite sohai (so far). I'm so glad our manager forced me to sit besides you. Thanks to him, I get to learn how sohai you actually are. Little that you know, you were such a good leader. You just don't dare to deal with the responsibility that comes with the title. You're so enjoy coding and helping juniors and you make us enjoy doing that too. So, chin up (chin meng?) and give it a try. Deal with it as cool and calm like you always be. Believe me, you actually a very good leader. You are caring, soft hearted, good critical thinking and great at making decisions. There's nothing that you can't handle. So yeah, just go for it. Also, please keep in your mind that your sohainess (and cares when I fucked things up), makes me feel that you're such a great brother (or sister #insidejokes)." - for the Y dude   

I will write more for the rest of you sohai(s) in my future entry. Ciao for now!

Sincerely, a fine polite and sweet young lady in the making - H