Dear Diary,
Today I'm at my usual place, Starbucks, trying to finish one or two tasks at least because this week is the sprint ends. But somehow, I lost all the mood I had due to something happened that I didn't see that coming. What happened?
Earlier this month, Starbucks released a pink planner called Siren Edition. It can be redeemed by purchasing 15 beverages. So today, I completed the task. However, the planner that I want has already out of stock. I.. wanna cry ☹️Because, out of all Starbucks here in Penang, I was expecting that at least here will have few stocks left. However, I'm wrong. And I'm seriously too sad to do any work now. Sound childish ey. But that's happened la.
I don't know what went wrong with me, but my mental health has been up and down these two weeks. Last week, I cried. I miss having Ned here tho. Previously, when she's still working here at the same office with me, I would go find her and hug her and cried as much as I want. For no specific reason. And then I would go back to my place, continue to do work. Ned being Ned, she won't ask why or what. She'll just let me cry my heart out and will wait till I'm ready to tell her by myself. But now, I cannot do the same anymore. There's no one like her. Centimetre will ask me repeatedly the whats and whys. F and A, I'm not how they will react to that. But none of them are reachable anyway on that day. So, I just go to the ladies and cried.
I also somehow, open up to F. Regarding the struggle I'm facing with my inner demon. I don't know what triggers that. But now, I'm 50-50 feeling regret and relieve about telling her. LOL me. I also, having a cold ward with the dude who's sitting beside me at the office. I consider him a friend, but now he's an enemy. I ran away from my place and it's been a little bit awkward, meeting him at the pantry and talking to him in slack. But he started first. And I'm not talking to him until he apologizes first.
Other than that, ermmmmmm 🤔Oh! I didn't join the festival this month. Why eh? Oh! I think because I'm broke? Or I think it's because it's a food festival. I'm not really into that anyway.
So... I think that's all I want to rant this time. Till next time ^^
Love, H.
p/s: Oh! I've upgraded my IOS and it was so unplanned. ok dats all.